What was I feeling when I cheated in my golf tournament

I know I cheated in my golf tournament. I was feeling pretty good knowing I looked good. There was no way I was losing that match. I didn’t feel nervous at all about cheating. I feel as if I have to uphold a decent reputation up here in the sophisticated West Egg. I’m from Louisville, with no family other than an aunt older than dirt. I need to make my own luck. If you’re not cheating, you’re not trying. I am a strong woman and I will tell you like it is. I don’t feel sorry for cheating in my match, and even if I did get caught, I still looked good doing it. I like the feeling of stirring up a little trouble and gossip; it is what I’m good at. I always have to be in the loop. I always want to be the center of attention no matter what. Nick noticed me. He remembered seeing me once and had heard an unpleasant story about me, which I’m sure he can’t remember the details of. I may be self-centered but one thing I’m not is boring. I’m a fun time and I enjoy myself and my company. I feel that others adore me for my ability to know everything that is happening in the social world.